Dilemna
Nilalandi ako ng isang lalakeng nasa isang relasyon. At nagpapalandi naman ako. ‘Coz we’re “two consecutive adults having fun” HAHAHA! Masaya naman ako.
Kaso parang nakilala niya ako na strong, na go with the flow lang.
E paano kapag na in love ako? Edi ako naman yung kawawa sa huli. Kasi kahit matapos yung kung ano mang meron kami, meron naman siyang syotang pwedeng balikan. E paano naman ako?
Sinabi ko yan sa kanya kaso ang sabi niya “Hindi mo ba kaya i control ang emotions mo?” Kaloka. Babae pa din naman ako, kahit pa strong strong ako diko padin kontrolado kung na po fall nako o hindi.
Hindi ko naman kayang sabihing “Ako pa. Strong kaya ako” Diko naman kaya lokohin sarili ko. Hindi ko rin kayang sabihing “Its a risk i’m willing to take” Ulul. Ano ako martir?
Alam kong mali ang gagawin ko kapag ipagpapatuloy pa kasi may girlfriend nga siya. Pano nalang kung ako ang nasa posisyon ng gf niya? Kahit epal ang gf niya, san mang banda mo tingnan, mali pa din.
Kaso, bet ko siya.
So ano na? Lalayo o lalandi? LOL.
Marami pa namang lalake e…
Bahala na. Kung ano mang maging desisyon ko, don’t judge. Tao lang ako, lumalandi, mahina, natutukso at nadadarang.
Third party
This is entirely unfair in three different ways.
First. It is unfair for your girlfriend for she loves you and she trusts you and she does not know that in the middle of the night or when she is not around, you have been talking to me on the phone until we both feel sleepy. It is unfair for her because she kisses you not knowing that you’ve kissed another girl when she knew that she is the only girl you are kissing. It is unfair for her because in this incident, she is playing the role of a pathetic i-gave-you-my-all girlfriend but is still not loved the way she is supposed to be loved.
Second. It is unfair to you. Because you deserve better than being called an asshole, or a cheater, or not-a-boyfriend-material. No you don’t deserve that. It is unfair to you because you have to make up every lie that you can so that you can have the time to have an affair. Yes, it makes you happy, but is it fulfilling? Hurting someone’s feelings? Hurting your loveone’s feelings? It is not fulfilling isn’t it? Then that makes it unfair for you. It is unfair to you because at the end, your girlfriend will know all about you’re little cheating game and she will curse you to the core.
And Thrid. It is unfair to me. Because you are the one flirting with me and is it my problem if i’m easily attracted especially to those whom are really attractive? No it is not my fault. Therefore, me being attracted back to you is not my fault but it will turn out to be my fault at the end because i’m the other woman and that is clearly unfair in my part. It is unfair to me because I want to talk about things you talk about with you girl but I can’t because I’m not the girlfriend and that is unfair to me because I’m unconsciously hurt. And what if I fell in love and wants more? Then it is evidently more unfair in my part.
So girlfriend, tie up your boyfriend.
And you, do what you want to do, I don’t care.
And dear me, you are currently ruining a relationship and you do not care because it is not your fault on why the boy is searching for another girl. It is also not your fault if the girlfriend is surprisingly boring. So carry on. Life is short. Live young and wild and free.
Black sheep
Siguro dapat ko na nga sigurong alamin ang magiging future ko. 4th yr na ko pero kung makapag sinungaling pako sa magulang ko, kung maging pariwara pa rin ako sa pagaaral ko. Dapat sigurong magseryoso na.
Dapat sigurong next sem ay magtino tino na ako. Huling sem na. Delikado pa kapag nag gago. Dapat sigurong di na ako magantay na ma e F.A na ako bago pa sipaging pumasok. Dapat na siguro akong maging mabuting anak. Yung ikaka proud naman kahit minsan ng mama at papa.
Feeling ko ang sama sama kong anak. Na puro disappointments ang dala ko sa kanila. Iniisip ko tuloy baka nagsisisi na sila na ako naging anak nila. Pero nagpapasalamat na din ako dahil sila ang magulang ko at kahit papano ay nararamdaman kong tina try nila ang best nila na intindihin ako. Malamang. Wala na magagawa e.
Anong nangyari? Bakit lumaki akong ganito? Napaka suwail ko. Huhu at diko alam kung kaya ko ba talaga magbago. Ang sama ko ba? Parang lagi nalang silang galit... Wala nang nagawang tama :(
Dapat sigurong next sem ay magtino tino na ako. Huling sem na. Delikado pa kapag nag gago. Dapat sigurong di na ako magantay na ma e F.A na ako bago pa sipaging pumasok. Dapat na siguro akong maging mabuting anak. Yung ikaka proud naman kahit minsan ng mama at papa.
Feeling ko ang sama sama kong anak. Na puro disappointments ang dala ko sa kanila. Iniisip ko tuloy baka nagsisisi na sila na ako naging anak nila. Pero nagpapasalamat na din ako dahil sila ang magulang ko at kahit papano ay nararamdaman kong tina try nila ang best nila na intindihin ako. Malamang. Wala na magagawa e.
Anong nangyari? Bakit lumaki akong ganito? Napaka suwail ko. Huhu at diko alam kung kaya ko ba talaga magbago. Ang sama ko ba? Parang lagi nalang silang galit... Wala nang nagawang tama :(
Bigyan kita pambili ng respeto, okay lang?
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ANG KAKAPAL NG MUKHA E.
On Paulo Coelho's Aleph
The book made me realize that one can really love two different person at a time. You can love another one even if you're committed with someone without being called a womanizer or anything that you can relate to that.
Paulo Coelho's Aleph is about Paulo having met a woman he loved 500 years ago, in the current time wherein he is 59 years old and the girl is 21 years old. He met the girl, Hilal, again in a different time, the now, where in Paulo is already stabled with his wife.
Paulo admitted that he loves Hilal but then he loves his wife. It's just nice that he embraces the fact that he's now with the woman he loved 500 years ago bu then he didn't leave his wife because he's committed to her and because he really loves her.
I don't know, I really love the book. Every Paulo Coelho book makes me don't wanna stop reading. Seriously.
And as much as I want to post on my accounts the quotes that I adored from Paulo Coelho's Aleph, I can't because there's many of them and it would irritate my friends on Twitter and Facebook. So with this reaction on his book, comes my most liked quotes on Paulo Coelho's Aleph.
"Graduates leave university and can't find a job. Old people reach retirement and have almost nothing to live on. Grown-ups have no time to dream, struggling from nine to five to support their families and pay for their children's education, always bumping up against the thing we all know as "harsh reality.""
"Some things stay forever, but most of the exercises, practices, and teachings end up disappearing down a black hole. Or so it seems."
"You can say what you like, but words won't change anything. I'm not happy."
"I'm filled with doubt, especially about my faith."
"It's doubt that drives a man onward."
"When I was young, I was dazzled by all the things life could offer me. I thought I was capable of achieving all of them."
"Despite all my efforts, I still can't honestly say that I feel closer to God and to myself."
"Like everyone else on the planet, you believed that time would teach you to grow closer to God. But time doesn't teach; it merely brings us a sense of weariness and of growing older."
"In life, there is only the present moment, the now. You can't measure time the way you measure distance between two points. "Time" doesn't pass."
"We human beings have enormous difficulty in focusing on the present; were always thinking about what we did, about how we could have done it better, about the consequences of our actions, and about why we didn't act as we should have."
"It isn't what you did in the past that will affect the present. It's what you do in the present that will redeem the past and thereby change the future."
"Our life is a constant journey, from birth to death. The landscape changes, the people change, our needs change, but the train keeps moving. Life is the train, not the station."
"Understand what is going on inside you and you will understand what is going on inside everyone else."
"When a sense of dissatisfaction persists, that means it was placed there by God for one reason only: you need to change everything and move forward."
"Whenever I refused to follow my fate, something very hard to bear would happen in my life."
"Tragedy always brings about radical change in our lives, a change that is associated with the same principle: loss."
"In theory, every loss is for our own good; in practice, though, that is when we question the existence of God and ask ourselves: What did I do to deserve this?"
"Yes, it's difficult to talk to your heart, and perhaps it isn't even necessary. We simply have to trust and follow the signs and live our Personal Legend; sooner or later, we will realize that we are all part of something, even if we can't understand rationally what that something is."
"Paradise is being able to say at that (second before our death) moment: "I made some mistakes, but I wasn't a coward. I lived life and did what I had to do.""
"No life is complete without a touch of madness."
"Life without cause is a life without effect."
"If we seek something, that same thing is seeking us."
"I wake up each morning wanting to die before the day is out, but I continue to live, suffering and fighting, fighting and suffering, clinging on to that certainty that it will all end one day."
"To live is to experience things, not sit around pondering the meaning of life."
"Don't think about what you'll tell people afterward. The time is here and now. Make the most of it."
"If you spend too much time trying to find out what is good or bad about someone else, you'll forget your own soul and end up exhausted and defeated by the energy you have wasted in judging others."
"Words are life set down on paper."
"No one can learn to love by following a manual and no one can learn to write by following a course. I'm not telling you to find people with different skills from yourself, because writing is no different from any other activity done with joy and enthusiasm."
"Anyone who knows God cannot describe Him. Anyone who can describe God does not know Him."
"We learn in the past, but we are not the result of that. We suffered in the past, loved in the past, cried and laughed in the past, but that's of no use in the present. The present has its challenges, its good and bad side. We can neither blame nor be grateful to the past for what is happening now. Each new experience of love has nothing whatsoever to do with past experiences. It's always new."
"People aren't used to that way of thinking, they want everything to stay the same. And the consequence of that is pain."
"We are not the person other people wish we were. We are who we decide to be. It's always easy to blame others. You can spend your entire life blaming the world, but your successes or failures are entirely your own responsibility."
"Everything has changed; it's just that we can't see it."
"I am who I was and who I will be."
"God is always close to us, whether we pray to him or not."
"Not everything in life is a long train with tickets available to all."
Paulo Coelho's Aleph is about Paulo having met a woman he loved 500 years ago, in the current time wherein he is 59 years old and the girl is 21 years old. He met the girl, Hilal, again in a different time, the now, where in Paulo is already stabled with his wife.
Paulo admitted that he loves Hilal but then he loves his wife. It's just nice that he embraces the fact that he's now with the woman he loved 500 years ago bu then he didn't leave his wife because he's committed to her and because he really loves her.
I don't know, I really love the book. Every Paulo Coelho book makes me don't wanna stop reading. Seriously.
And as much as I want to post on my accounts the quotes that I adored from Paulo Coelho's Aleph, I can't because there's many of them and it would irritate my friends on Twitter and Facebook. So with this reaction on his book, comes my most liked quotes on Paulo Coelho's Aleph.
"Graduates leave university and can't find a job. Old people reach retirement and have almost nothing to live on. Grown-ups have no time to dream, struggling from nine to five to support their families and pay for their children's education, always bumping up against the thing we all know as "harsh reality.""
"Some things stay forever, but most of the exercises, practices, and teachings end up disappearing down a black hole. Or so it seems."
"You can say what you like, but words won't change anything. I'm not happy."
"I'm filled with doubt, especially about my faith."
"It's doubt that drives a man onward."
"When I was young, I was dazzled by all the things life could offer me. I thought I was capable of achieving all of them."
"Despite all my efforts, I still can't honestly say that I feel closer to God and to myself."
"Like everyone else on the planet, you believed that time would teach you to grow closer to God. But time doesn't teach; it merely brings us a sense of weariness and of growing older."
"In life, there is only the present moment, the now. You can't measure time the way you measure distance between two points. "Time" doesn't pass."
"We human beings have enormous difficulty in focusing on the present; were always thinking about what we did, about how we could have done it better, about the consequences of our actions, and about why we didn't act as we should have."
"It isn't what you did in the past that will affect the present. It's what you do in the present that will redeem the past and thereby change the future."
"Our life is a constant journey, from birth to death. The landscape changes, the people change, our needs change, but the train keeps moving. Life is the train, not the station."
"Understand what is going on inside you and you will understand what is going on inside everyone else."
"When a sense of dissatisfaction persists, that means it was placed there by God for one reason only: you need to change everything and move forward."
"Whenever I refused to follow my fate, something very hard to bear would happen in my life."
"Tragedy always brings about radical change in our lives, a change that is associated with the same principle: loss."
"In theory, every loss is for our own good; in practice, though, that is when we question the existence of God and ask ourselves: What did I do to deserve this?"
"Yes, it's difficult to talk to your heart, and perhaps it isn't even necessary. We simply have to trust and follow the signs and live our Personal Legend; sooner or later, we will realize that we are all part of something, even if we can't understand rationally what that something is."
"Paradise is being able to say at that (second before our death) moment: "I made some mistakes, but I wasn't a coward. I lived life and did what I had to do.""
"No life is complete without a touch of madness."
"Life without cause is a life without effect."
"If we seek something, that same thing is seeking us."
"I wake up each morning wanting to die before the day is out, but I continue to live, suffering and fighting, fighting and suffering, clinging on to that certainty that it will all end one day."
"To live is to experience things, not sit around pondering the meaning of life."
"Don't think about what you'll tell people afterward. The time is here and now. Make the most of it."
"If you spend too much time trying to find out what is good or bad about someone else, you'll forget your own soul and end up exhausted and defeated by the energy you have wasted in judging others."
"Words are life set down on paper."
"No one can learn to love by following a manual and no one can learn to write by following a course. I'm not telling you to find people with different skills from yourself, because writing is no different from any other activity done with joy and enthusiasm."
"Anyone who knows God cannot describe Him. Anyone who can describe God does not know Him."
"We learn in the past, but we are not the result of that. We suffered in the past, loved in the past, cried and laughed in the past, but that's of no use in the present. The present has its challenges, its good and bad side. We can neither blame nor be grateful to the past for what is happening now. Each new experience of love has nothing whatsoever to do with past experiences. It's always new."
"People aren't used to that way of thinking, they want everything to stay the same. And the consequence of that is pain."
"We are not the person other people wish we were. We are who we decide to be. It's always easy to blame others. You can spend your entire life blaming the world, but your successes or failures are entirely your own responsibility."
"Everything has changed; it's just that we can't see it."
"I am who I was and who I will be."
"God is always close to us, whether we pray to him or not."
"Not everything in life is a long train with tickets available to all."
Pano um-aura #1
Siguro nga nasa atin ang problema kaya hindi tayo masaya sa buhay natin. Lakas lang maka dahilan ng mga sisisihin pa ang ibang tao at nagkanda letse letse ang buhay nila.
Tulad nalang ng mga may problema sa pagibig at iniwan ng mga mahal nila sa buhay. Oo nga't maaring kasalanan yun ng isa kasi ipinagpalit ka. Siguro kasalanan nung isa kasi trinaydor ka niya. Pero naisip mo ba na siguro nasayo lang nga ang problema? Siguro boring ka kasama kaya ni throw away ka nalang. Siguro nagsawa na siya sayo. Minsan kasi dapat hindi natin binabaling sa iba ang problema lalo na't alam mo sa sarili mong ikaw ang mali.
Katulad nalang din kapag single ka. O diba siguro nasayo ang problema nun, hindi lang naman siguro dahil sa wala kang itsura, wala kang appeal or walang nanliligaw sa'yo, siguro dahil din sa hindi mo nadadala ang sarili mo.
Maaari ring sigurong iniisip mo na walang magkakagusto sa'yo kaya ganyan ka. Minsan kailangan mong magtiwala sa sarili mo at gawan ng paraan para sumaya ang buhay mo.
Kasi magkakadugtong yan e. Kapag naninisi ka ng iba, hindi ka masaya sa loob loob mo. Pero kung inaamin mo sa sarili mo na ikaw ang may problema at may pagkukulang, ma wowork out mo lahat ng mali at magiging okay ka, magiging masaya ka.
Lalapitan ka ng good vibes bilang good vibes ang dala mo. O diba bongga. At kapag nangyari yun, kahit ano pang itsura mo, keri na! Aura na!
Tulad nalang ng mga may problema sa pagibig at iniwan ng mga mahal nila sa buhay. Oo nga't maaring kasalanan yun ng isa kasi ipinagpalit ka. Siguro kasalanan nung isa kasi trinaydor ka niya. Pero naisip mo ba na siguro nasayo lang nga ang problema? Siguro boring ka kasama kaya ni throw away ka nalang. Siguro nagsawa na siya sayo. Minsan kasi dapat hindi natin binabaling sa iba ang problema lalo na't alam mo sa sarili mong ikaw ang mali.
Katulad nalang din kapag single ka. O diba siguro nasayo ang problema nun, hindi lang naman siguro dahil sa wala kang itsura, wala kang appeal or walang nanliligaw sa'yo, siguro dahil din sa hindi mo nadadala ang sarili mo.
Maaari ring sigurong iniisip mo na walang magkakagusto sa'yo kaya ganyan ka. Minsan kailangan mong magtiwala sa sarili mo at gawan ng paraan para sumaya ang buhay mo.
Kasi magkakadugtong yan e. Kapag naninisi ka ng iba, hindi ka masaya sa loob loob mo. Pero kung inaamin mo sa sarili mo na ikaw ang may problema at may pagkukulang, ma wowork out mo lahat ng mali at magiging okay ka, magiging masaya ka.
Lalapitan ka ng good vibes bilang good vibes ang dala mo. O diba bongga. At kapag nangyari yun, kahit ano pang itsura mo, keri na! Aura na!
Hindi naman paasa e, hindi lang sigurado
Paano kapag hindi ka pa sure sa isang tao pero gusto mo siya kasama at kausap? Hindi sure in a sense na baka kasi gusto mo lang siya dahil siya yung nandyan. Hindi naman porket hindi mo masabi sa kanya na hindi mo siya gusto ay pinapaasa mo lang yung tao.
Unang una, ayoko nang umaasa kasi alam kong masakit yun. Bale, ayoko ding magpaasa kasi alam ko yung pakiramdam na umaasa. 'Yung hindi ko magawang sabihing ayaw ko sa kanya, pagpapaasa ba yun?
Ang sakin lang, hindi ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko. Ayaw ko siya mawala at mawala ang pagkakaibigan namin dahil sa ayaw ko sa kanya. Ayaw ko din namang sabihing gusto ko siya kasi mas lalong aasa yun lalo na at hindi pa naman ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko.
Wala namang masamang maghintay diba? Hihintayin ko muna hanggang maramdaman kong gusto ko siya. Pero kapag siya na ang napagod, okay lang. At least hindi ako nagsayang ng pagkakataon sa parehong panig, kung gusto ko man siya o hindi.
Hindi ako nagpapaasa, hindi ko pa lang talaga alam ang nararamdaman ko. Posible ba yun? Oo naman, posible. Marunong ka pa ba sa nararamdaman ko? Ikaw kaya dito. Mas maalam ka yata e. Mas alam mo yata ang dapat kong gawin e.
Kausap ka na naman,
Parang hindi na nagkasawaan
Pero malabo pa din ang nararamdaman
Sila ba o ikaw nalang?
E paano ba naman, napakalabo mo.
Hindi malaman kung sinasabi'y seryoso
Malay ko ba kung pareho pala tayong gagi
Napakalabo, tangina mo
Pwede ba yung ayaw kita mawala?
Pwede ba yung ayaw kita makasama?
Ayaw makasama pero ayaw mawala,
Uubra ba yun? Sa panahon ngayon, may ganun ba?
Ayaw ko ng mabilisan
Gusto ko may kasiguraduhan
Para may patunguhan
Kahit na nagkakalokohan
Parang hindi na nagkasawaan
Pero malabo pa din ang nararamdaman
Sila ba o ikaw nalang?
E paano ba naman, napakalabo mo.
Hindi malaman kung sinasabi'y seryoso
Malay ko ba kung pareho pala tayong gagi
Napakalabo, tangina mo
Pwede ba yung ayaw kita mawala?
Pwede ba yung ayaw kita makasama?
Ayaw makasama pero ayaw mawala,
Uubra ba yun? Sa panahon ngayon, may ganun ba?
Ayaw ko ng mabilisan
Gusto ko may kasiguraduhan
Para may patunguhan
Kahit na nagkakalokohan
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