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Hello, 2012!
Hello, New Year! And here we go again with the fireworks, with the resolutions, with the jumps, with the foods, with the polka dots, with the flowery group messages.
I would like to say goodbye to 2011 with a smile. Yes you're almost filled with bad memories, bullshits, problems, negative vibes and irritating people but I know that all of these things is to prepare me for this year, 2012. And I would like to thank you for that. I know that if 2012 will be a bad year for me, I know that you have prepared me enough to face them. Also, thank you for letting me be able to meet some amazing people, letting me do some amazing things and I do not regret a single incident that happened in your year. It is also acceptable that I have not yet found the love of my life in your year. I know that I'm not yet ready. Thank you for everything.
And now I would like to welcome 2012 with a big hug! I will welcome every blessing and problem that you bring and that you are about ti give me. I would gladly accept all the challenges that I would experience in your year. This year would be a big one! Thesis defense and Graduation Day! Oh how I am really excited for this year!I hope that you will be good and let me find a job that I will embrace. I hope that you will be good, awesome, impressive, amazing, stoned, hyped, and all other relevant adjectives there is.
So how does my January 1, 2012 goes? I was irritated because it was just 11:45 of Dec 31 2011 and there are already many people who are making noises. "KJ" me anytime you want but I was really irritated. I'm sorry. Hihi. I just hope that our life would be like in the movies, may countdown kapag mag nu new year na. So that our new year celebration would be a seshal one. :-)
There are the fireworks, the many foods, polka dots attire, circle shaped fruits, the jumps, the pictures, the drunkards, the celebration and all. All in all, it was just the same new year celebration, the same awesome new year celebration.
Also, 2012, I trust in you. I know that this is not the end of the world. Which reminds me to say 'Fuck you' to those playing Jay Sean's 2012. I mean, bitches, listen to the fucking lyrics okay? My dad was singing it earlier and I asked him to stop and he stopped. Maybe he understood my message.
That's all for my 1st blog of 2012. Cheers!
Happy New Year! May you have a prosperous one. :)
On Lumayo Ka nga sa Akin
Lumayo Ka Nga Sa Akin by Bob OngMy rating: 5 of 5 stars
Pinaka gusto ko na yatang libro ni Bob Ong. Mula sa cover hanggang sa back cover. Precious heart romances ang peg.
Pinakita dito yung mga stereotype shits sa mga pinoy movies. Kung paanong dapat may mga bandidong papatay sa bida pero yung bida hindi mapatay patay kahit madaming bandido. Kung paanong may mga lasenggero dapat sa kanto para manyakin yung leading lady at makikipagsuntukan ang bida. Kung paanong mas malupet pa ang special effects sa horror kesa sa storya mismo. Kung paanong O.A umarte ang mga nasa horror para madala naman ang eksena kasi nga pangit ang storya. Kung paanong pang witch ang tawa ng kontrabida. Kung paanong laging namamaltrato ang babaeng bida dahil may minahal na mayaman. King paanong langit ang isa at lupa ang isa.
Kung panong irelevant naman ang products sa eksena pero ipapakita talaga kasi sponsors sila. "Nalapa na ng komersyalismo ang sining. Kaya utot na lang nito ang nilalanghap natin ngayon."
Pinakitang ang dami daming nangyayari sa eksena pero kailangan talagang may manuting asal na maipapakita. "Nilagyan lang ng konting moral lesson ang pelikula para hindi maging ganap na basura."
Pinakita rin na sa Comedy, kailangang may malalait o masasaktan para funny. Na sa Horror, kailangang magaganda ang visuals. "Ang comedy natin, puro slapstick. Ang horror natin, puro visual. I'm sensing a pattern here..." At sa sopa operas, kailangang may love triangle. Hihi.
Tapos syempre, magtatapos sa happy ending. Kasi gusto daw ng produce ng feel good ending. True enough, eto naman ang gusto ng karamihan sa mga Pilipino e. Filipinos are naturally happy nga kasi diba? Haha. Minsan lang magka bet ang bad vibes dito. Parang di naman.
"Ubos na ang dalawang oras. Anuman ang nangyari, automatic happy ending tayo."
Ganda! Award!
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On The diary of a young girl
The Diary of a Young Girl by Anne FrankMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
Remarkably good book. This book inspires me to face tomorrow and every challenge or boredom that is within that tomorrow.
It shows that one can find love admist of war, that one can still be happy though you are hiding in a secret place. Anne Frank here supports Rihanna in saying that "We found love in a hopeless place."
Too bad that she died in a young age, but at least she had managed to understand things better, see things clearly and be mature & grow up.
It is nice that Anne Frank can keep a journal without it being seen by her parents. I wonder what would happen if her parents saw that journal like my parents has seen mine before - which is the reason why I am not keeping one now.
It is also nice that Anne's wish to live even after death is fulfilled by having a Anne Frank foundation and also by her diary being published.
She sure can organize and write her thoughts well. I'm pretty sure that if ever she lives longer, she would be a great writer or a remarkable journalist.
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On Lolita
Lolita by Vladimir NabokovMy rating: 3 of 5 stars
I found the book surprisingly boring. Seriously, it did, big time bores me. I at first did not know the plot, I just heard that this is a "must-read" so I bought it and excitedly read it. And then boom, it bores me to death. I literally skipped pages. I'm sorry.
But all in all, I think it's a good book. I love the story! If my rating of this book would just be based on the plot of the story and characters, I might give this a 5 out of 5, but because of the boring execution of story, and my love-hate relationship with the characters, here's a 3.
Lolita if I may say is such a bitch at an early age. She even say in the book "I'm so sorry I cheated so much, but that's the way things are." OH NO YOU DIDN'T! That part is really heartbreaking. I'm currently having a love-hate relationship with Lo's character right now.
Same as my feelings for Lo, I am also having a love-hate relationship with Humbert. I think it is really nice that you are that in love with a person and that you will do anything for that person. But I think being too much in love and obsessed and too much under that person is really BAD.
I love the story. But no joke, it bores me to death.
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On Aleph
Aleph by Mark Bramhall (Narrator) Paulo CoelhoMy rating: 5 of 5 stars
The book made me realize that one can really love two different person at a time. You can love another one even if you're committed with someone without being called a womanizer or anything that you can relate to that.
Paulo Coelho's Aleph is about Paulo having met a woman he loved 500 years ago, in the current time wherein he is 59 years old and the girl is 21 years old. He met the girl, Hilal, again in a different time, the now, where in Paulo is already stabled with his wife.
Paulo admitted that he loves Hilal but then he loves his wife. It's just nice that he embraces the fact that he's now with the woman he loved 500 years ago bu then he didn't leave his wife because he's committed to her and because he really loves her.
I don't know, I really love the book. Every Paulo Coelho book makes me don't wanna stop reading. Seriously.
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On Snuff
Snuff by Chuck PalahniukMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
At first, I thought I was just reading porn. Yes, reading, not watching which makes this book a unique one. It's my first time to encounter a book where in porn making is illustrated.
I thought it was just about porn, about a lady trying to be legendary by having sex with 600 men in a day, beating other records.
But Chuck Palahniuk is good enough to put a twist that a boy is one of the 600 males to have sex with the porn star, Cassie Wright, and that boy claims himself as Cassie's son.
The boy, #72, said that he does not want to have sex with her birth mother and that he just want to give his mom a new life. He just want to get his mother out of that life.
And Palahniuk is better enough to put another twist that it turns out that #72 is not Cassie's child that her child is a girl and that she is just saying that its a boy.
Another twist, a big one, is that Cassie's Personal-Assistant-ish Shiela, was her birth child and she knows that since she first lay her eyes on her.
Cassie has been given poison and she realize this that she said to her daughter that she knows she's her child and that she wants to give her another life.
It turns out that she's making all the money so that her daughter would be rich. She knows she'll die one day and that she wants to ensure her daughters future.
I like the twists of the book. I like how Palahniuk makes your mind think that this is what's happening and all of a sudden, changes everything. A must read!
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Darling,
A friend of mine - whom I call darling - who don't usually blog her feelings surprised me on her recent post about a guy who just broke her heart. Well I am aware that there is this new "someone" in her life and that she is happy. Then one day she began tweeting some i-am-heartbroken-tweets on Twitter and it breaks my heart. So as a friend, I'm there to message her saying that everything is okay and stuffs.
She does not have the time or maybe she don't want to make kwento. But me being likas na chismosa and her, posting the story in her blog, I'm down to my conclusion that the guy is ... sorry darling but he's a asshole.
Sinong matinong lalake ang magpapaasa, magiging sweet sayo tapos kapag may dumating na isa sasabihin mo lang na 'matagal mo na siyang gusto' at feeling mo walang ibang nasasaktan. Sinong matinog lalake ang gumagawa non? Putangina.
That is so wrong. Guys, if you like a girl, before making sweet gestures and making landi to that girl, make sure you have enough balls to stand up for that shit. Kasi putangina, kung hindi mo kaya manindigan, huwag kang makipaglandian. Pakyu ka pala e.
If you'll make landi, be sure na sa isa lang. And if that person is making landi back at you, alam mo na, may feelings na yan. Wag ka na mag inaso na kapag may dumating na bago aayaw ka na sa isa. Gago ba you? Hindi ito laro okay. Bawal reservations. Bawal substitution.
Mga lalake talaga o. Kuplikado ng buhay e. Hindi uubra sa buhay yung "Sana dalawa ang puso ko" okay? Isa lang yan and deal with it. Makuntento ka. Guys, okay lang lumandi pero know your limits naman. Wag naman sobra. At kung lalandi man, alam mo dapat yung mga kaakibat ng paglalandi niyo. Kaloka.
At darling, wala na akong message sa'yo. Na comment ko na dun sa post mo. Sorry for this, kailangan ko lang din ilabas nararamdaman ko. Haha! I love you. Smile!
She does not have the time or maybe she don't want to make kwento. But me being likas na chismosa and her, posting the story in her blog, I'm down to my conclusion that the guy is ... sorry darling but he's a asshole.
Sinong matinong lalake ang magpapaasa, magiging sweet sayo tapos kapag may dumating na isa sasabihin mo lang na 'matagal mo na siyang gusto' at feeling mo walang ibang nasasaktan. Sinong matinog lalake ang gumagawa non? Putangina.
That is so wrong. Guys, if you like a girl, before making sweet gestures and making landi to that girl, make sure you have enough balls to stand up for that shit. Kasi putangina, kung hindi mo kaya manindigan, huwag kang makipaglandian. Pakyu ka pala e.
If you'll make landi, be sure na sa isa lang. And if that person is making landi back at you, alam mo na, may feelings na yan. Wag ka na mag inaso na kapag may dumating na bago aayaw ka na sa isa. Gago ba you? Hindi ito laro okay. Bawal reservations. Bawal substitution.
Mga lalake talaga o. Kuplikado ng buhay e. Hindi uubra sa buhay yung "Sana dalawa ang puso ko" okay? Isa lang yan and deal with it. Makuntento ka. Guys, okay lang lumandi pero know your limits naman. Wag naman sobra. At kung lalandi man, alam mo dapat yung mga kaakibat ng paglalandi niyo. Kaloka.
At darling, wala na akong message sa'yo. Na comment ko na dun sa post mo. Sorry for this, kailangan ko lang din ilabas nararamdaman ko. Haha! I love you. Smile!
Light in Black and White
I don't mean to give a deeper meaning on the title because all I'm trying to say is that there is really light in this black and white picture. So yesterday, we've been to Enchanted Kingdom - I'm with family and relatives (FUN) - then I've set my camera's settings into BNW. Sepia later on. It's cute kasi.
Though Black and White is good and simple. Standard is still better...
Thank you EK for that fun experience! Never fails. Way better that Star City, sorry hihi. 1hr to 2hr na pila for every ride but it's really worth it. Super daming tao. 12 o'clock nag close. Tapos 1st time ko hindi na-wet sa Rio Grande. AS IN. Super dry ako. Waduup. In the meantime, I'll post an irrelevant photo of the carousel. Sorry. Haha! Cute kasi ang sepia. Lol.
Trash all the stash
So tomorrow I'll be throwing away all my stash, lighter and cigs all because of a incident that happened earlier. My father asked me "Bakit may lighter ka sa bag mo?" And I answered "Kapag brownout" And I'm like what kind of answer is that. Tanga tanga tanga!!
Every time I see my mother and father I can't help but to think if they are thinking of me, smoking; if they think I drink then I smoke. I don't know, I think they are judging me know in their minds and I hate this feeling.
This is also the reason why I am so paranoid and freaked out about me to make pa medical most especially the xray result because I think that they will look at it closely to see if I am smoking or not. (See recent post)
It's a good thing that classes starts January 3 because I can have the privileged to not take my medical exam with my father. If that happens, I am so dead. Good thing that there is the UST hospital and that I can make this as a reason for me to take my medical exam at Manila.
It all starts with a lighter. With this, I'm throwing my lighter away. Fuck you lighter.
Every time I see my mother and father I can't help but to think if they are thinking of me, smoking; if they think I drink then I smoke. I don't know, I think they are judging me know in their minds and I hate this feeling.
This is also the reason why I am so paranoid and freaked out about me to make pa medical most especially the xray result because I think that they will look at it closely to see if I am smoking or not. (See recent post)
It's a good thing that classes starts January 3 because I can have the privileged to not take my medical exam with my father. If that happens, I am so dead. Good thing that there is the UST hospital and that I can make this as a reason for me to take my medical exam at Manila.
It all starts with a lighter. With this, I'm throwing my lighter away. Fuck you lighter.
I'm so dead
So I need to have my medical certificate for papa's work shit and because of this, I'll have to go to the hospital and be checked of course. So I'm nervous about my Xray result and drug test.
I planned to buy a clean result XRAY film but then my friends told me that they don't have that shit and that they doubt if they are selling it. So now my plan is to have my clean friend "XRAY-ed" then I will use that as mine.
I then planned to go to Recto to make pagawa a fake medical certificate. But I'm really nervous that if they realized that it's fake then I'm so so so dead. So I think it would be better if I really go to the hospital and got myself checked.
I asked my friend who have taken weed, cocaine and LSD if he's negative in his drug test and he said yes, he said that milk and water therapy really worked for him.
I'm being paranoid all over here and he's laughing at me saying that I'm paranoid and that "Tae" daw ako. What can I do? I'm so dead if they found out that I've turned into this... I hate myself now. Which reminds me that this might not be a good time to write that About Me paper for Marriage and Family.
Anyways, I'm down with this plan. I'll bring a friend to have her XRAY and then I'll make pa medical na and if the drug result is negative, then I can breathe again but if its positive, I'm going back to the original plan: Oplan Recto.
Milk. Pineapple Juice. Yakult. All for the medical certificate.
Pray for me, guise.
I planned to buy a clean result XRAY film but then my friends told me that they don't have that shit and that they doubt if they are selling it. So now my plan is to have my clean friend "XRAY-ed" then I will use that as mine.
I then planned to go to Recto to make pagawa a fake medical certificate. But I'm really nervous that if they realized that it's fake then I'm so so so dead. So I think it would be better if I really go to the hospital and got myself checked.
I asked my friend who have taken weed, cocaine and LSD if he's negative in his drug test and he said yes, he said that milk and water therapy really worked for him.
I'm being paranoid all over here and he's laughing at me saying that I'm paranoid and that "Tae" daw ako. What can I do? I'm so dead if they found out that I've turned into this... I hate myself now. Which reminds me that this might not be a good time to write that About Me paper for Marriage and Family.
Anyways, I'm down with this plan. I'll bring a friend to have her XRAY and then I'll make pa medical na and if the drug result is negative, then I can breathe again but if its positive, I'm going back to the original plan: Oplan Recto.
Milk. Pineapple Juice. Yakult. All for the medical certificate.
Pray for me, guise.
Christmas 2011
Christmas Eve
It's kinda sad that we have to celebrate our Christmas Eve here at our house because of the new born baby and not the way it used to be where in we go to Batangas and celebrate Christmas Eve with other relatives. But on a brighter note, at least we've got the chance to go to Batangas on Christmas day up to Dec 26.
Christmas
At the age of 20, this Christmas is the first Christmas ever where I have been able to be with my friends and drink with them. Even though I don't have my parent's permission, I feel light that I have fulfilled that thing. I really want to drink on Christmas Day!! Anything wrong with that?
It's also nice how my parents give money and things to kids they know and even to the kids that they don't know. Made me proud that we're related.
This is also the first Christmas were I've given gifts to my relatives. But I have not spend money. I'm broke. I just give them books (my books) because I believe that 'It's the thought that counts!' My books are important to me, they know that, so I think they have received the message.
Though it's better to give than to receive, it is really really nice to receive!!
And the highlight of every Christmas: Gifts, baby!
It's kinda sad that we have to celebrate our Christmas Eve here at our house because of the new born baby and not the way it used to be where in we go to Batangas and celebrate Christmas Eve with other relatives. But on a brighter note, at least we've got the chance to go to Batangas on Christmas day up to Dec 26.
Christmas
At the age of 20, this Christmas is the first Christmas ever where I have been able to be with my friends and drink with them. Even though I don't have my parent's permission, I feel light that I have fulfilled that thing. I really want to drink on Christmas Day!! Anything wrong with that?
It's also nice how my parents give money and things to kids they know and even to the kids that they don't know. Made me proud that we're related.
This is also the first Christmas were I've given gifts to my relatives. But I have not spend money. I'm broke. I just give them books (my books) because I believe that 'It's the thought that counts!' My books are important to me, they know that, so I think they have received the message.
Though it's better to give than to receive, it is really really nice to receive!!
And the highlight of every Christmas: Gifts, baby!
These are from my relatives. Thank you. I love you all. Merry Christmas!
Once is enough
He told me to call him. I said I don’t have his number anymore. Wadup? Still not contented with your girl friend? I have been fooled once, and it will never happen again, alright?
So kapal the face. Excuse me, Claire right here is 1.) not in love with you 2.) does not like you 3.) not missing you 4.) does not have any load to contact you
And hello, chiks ka ba? Okay na ang isang pagkakamaling magpabilog sa kalandian mo. Hindi naman ako nasaktan, tinatamad lang ako makipag landian. Sorry. Better luck next year.
P.S I will never be your fuck buddy. Stop emailing me. Zero fucks will be given.
And then there's Facebook
I mean, who would have thought of hitting the invisible button because of their "inaanaks" and then here comes the realization that our technology is so much revolving and that I'm 20 years old now and that I'm old. Huhu I want to cry.
Moving on, why is that if one says that they'll give you pagmamahal (love) as a gift for Christmas, the one who asked become irritated or disappointed? Kids, when you grow up, I'm telling you it is hard to find love so collect the love I am giving you, okay? It is rare to find love when you grow up so as early as today, cherish it. Really. Be glad that I am giving you the most precious gift ever - Love. And besides, music thought me to Give Love on Christmas Day, and I am just doing the right thing.
Kids, cherish every gift that you'll receive even it is not Christmas, be it a material gift or emotional gift. Cherish it.
Truth be told. I'm just broke. Try again next year. I really love you kids, though. And I'm still giving you love this Christmas.
That forever thinggy
One can be in love with someone forever. But "that someone" cannot be "that someone" forever. There will sure be a time when that person would change, would love you more, or would love you less.
Maybe that's what happens when couples broke up even when they actually said to their partner "I love you forever." Yes, people can love someone forever but this does not mean that you will be with that someone forever.
There are some people who really love each other but are not meant for each other therefore, they cannot be together. But still, they love each other.
People usually change, but sometimes the feelings remains the same.
This "forever" thinggy works like that. It works hand in hand with acceptance. It works when you've accepted that things used to be like that, they fall apart. It works when you've accepted that love is usually like that, it'll slaps you in your face and in any other places. And it works when you've accepted that forever is usually like that, it usually never happens.
Maybe that's what happens when couples broke up even when they actually said to their partner "I love you forever." Yes, people can love someone forever but this does not mean that you will be with that someone forever.
There are some people who really love each other but are not meant for each other therefore, they cannot be together. But still, they love each other.
People usually change, but sometimes the feelings remains the same.
This "forever" thinggy works like that. It works hand in hand with acceptance. It works when you've accepted that things used to be like that, they fall apart. It works when you've accepted that love is usually like that, it'll slaps you in your face and in any other places. And it works when you've accepted that forever is usually like that, it usually never happens.
"IT" is not a game
"Gusto mo ba makipag sex minsan?"
Seriously? Guys? I mean, girls have feelings. Sometimes you guys can be such a jackass. So un-fucking-believable. Can you not ask a girl properly or let things flow and then have sex? Can you not make sex sound as if its just like playing games? What the fuck. Sex is sex. Its not some kind of tetris or dota where you can ask a mate like "Tara dota tayo." Or "Gusto mo ba mag tetris minsan?"
Seriously? Asking a girl like that is like just asking her to say to yourself to fuck your dog, sonavabitch. You act like shit, you'll be treated like shit. Guys, be sensitive enough to know that girls are not numb. Even though they looks strong because they want you to think they are strong, they are weak and that inside all they want is respect.
Even if they curse, they drink, they smoke and all other vices, they are just human and they are girls. For Christ's sake, they are girls and they have all the right in the world to be respected.
"Gusto mo ba makipag sex minsan?" - Oh no, just, NO. Never would work.
Seriously? Guys? I mean, girls have feelings. Sometimes you guys can be such a jackass. So un-fucking-believable. Can you not ask a girl properly or let things flow and then have sex? Can you not make sex sound as if its just like playing games? What the fuck. Sex is sex. Its not some kind of tetris or dota where you can ask a mate like "Tara dota tayo." Or "Gusto mo ba mag tetris minsan?"
Seriously? Asking a girl like that is like just asking her to say to yourself to fuck your dog, sonavabitch. You act like shit, you'll be treated like shit. Guys, be sensitive enough to know that girls are not numb. Even though they looks strong because they want you to think they are strong, they are weak and that inside all they want is respect.
Even if they curse, they drink, they smoke and all other vices, they are just human and they are girls. For Christ's sake, they are girls and they have all the right in the world to be respected.
"Gusto mo ba makipag sex minsan?" - Oh no, just, NO. Never would work.
Thesis IT.
No more thesis is it for we are so done. Fuck yeah. So last December 15 we've just submitted our lovely effort-fucking-full thesis. Who would done be so happy to passed their undergrad thesis? Who would not? So can someone blame me for being so much happy?
I will not forget all the hardships me and my thesis mates have gone through, all the statuses on facebook and the tweets on twitter that are meant for each other because we are so pissed, all the coffee we've take, all the money spent on printing and photo copying, all the sleepless nights, all the midnight conference, all the writing researching and revising, all the submission dates we've crammed into, all the hard feelings this thesis brought us into. These things and everything that has not been said is part of our thesis. And our thesis will never be complete and done without these shits.
I love you thesis mates/friends. Through thick and thin. Through submission and revising. Through library or anywhere. Through coffee or milk tea. I love you big big time.
I will not forget all the hardships me and my thesis mates have gone through, all the statuses on facebook and the tweets on twitter that are meant for each other because we are so pissed, all the coffee we've take, all the money spent on printing and photo copying, all the sleepless nights, all the midnight conference, all the writing researching and revising, all the submission dates we've crammed into, all the hard feelings this thesis brought us into. These things and everything that has not been said is part of our thesis. And our thesis will never be complete and done without these shits.
I love you thesis mates/friends. Through thick and thin. Through submission and revising. Through library or anywhere. Through coffee or milk tea. I love you big big time.
Fire works.
Last christmas party as a student and I have not brought any boyfriend or any boy I'm dating for that matter. I know a lot of people who never fails to bring their someone special in occasions like these while some somehow wishes to have someone to bring in times of these types of occasions.
But who would not want to bring their special someone on their Christmas party? Or at UST Paskuhan for that matter? Who do not want to have someone to be introduced to their friends and be "yeee"-ed at? Who do not want to watch the fireworks display beside that special someone? Of course as cheesy at it may seems, its fucking sweet and romantic. And I want that.
I used to want that thing. Having a boyfriend to bring and be "yee"-ed at even though I'll say, "stop that, :">" when the real meaning is, "Behold freinds. Continue." I used to want to watch the fireworks display beside that someone thinking that this is the most romantic thing I've ever experienced this year. I used to want to introduce that someone to my friends.
I used to. But now, I think I'm contented. Snacks with blockmates. Watched fireworks with college friends. Drink with college blockmates and some new found friends. I've got to say, I love this years Paskuhan. I don't care about the fireworks. I don't care if last years is beautiful than this year. This phrase is to remind you that Paskuhan is not about the fireworks. Its about paskuhan. Paskuhan does not mean fireworks. Paskuhan is Paskuhan. Deal with it.
And I think, Paskuhan that's clebrated with friends is a perfect Paskuhan. Love them. Plus Angel Esmerna. Missing in action ang peg.
But who would not want to bring their special someone on their Christmas party? Or at UST Paskuhan for that matter? Who do not want to have someone to be introduced to their friends and be "yeee"-ed at? Who do not want to watch the fireworks display beside that special someone? Of course as cheesy at it may seems, its fucking sweet and romantic. And I want that.
I used to want that thing. Having a boyfriend to bring and be "yee"-ed at even though I'll say, "stop that, :">" when the real meaning is, "Behold freinds. Continue." I used to want to watch the fireworks display beside that someone thinking that this is the most romantic thing I've ever experienced this year. I used to want to introduce that someone to my friends.
I used to. But now, I think I'm contented. Snacks with blockmates. Watched fireworks with college friends. Drink with college blockmates and some new found friends. I've got to say, I love this years Paskuhan. I don't care about the fireworks. I don't care if last years is beautiful than this year. This phrase is to remind you that Paskuhan is not about the fireworks. Its about paskuhan. Paskuhan does not mean fireworks. Paskuhan is Paskuhan. Deal with it.
And I think, Paskuhan that's clebrated with friends is a perfect Paskuhan. Love them. Plus Angel Esmerna. Missing in action ang peg.
Easy as the movies
I hope life would be like that, I hope life could be as easy as the movies, but no. Unlike some mainstream movies, life don't give us lessons that real quick, life don't send us someone to love when we are on the verge of breaking down, life do not make it easy for us to make lemonades from lemons. But like some funny love stories, life fuck us all. Life fuck us all real hard. Talk about being fucked without giving out permission. It's like I've been raped million of times.
I hope my life could be like that. Sometimes I wish that my high school life had been as dramatic as their high school life, when one is just a looser then at prom night, she suddenly became the prom queen. Oh wow, lovely. Like it's really happening to most of the people watching in the real life.
This is why sometimes I hate movies, and whatever is there to watch because it puts wrong fucking notions into people's mind. It tells you that everything will be over in just a snap and you'll get over with your problem but it is really not that easy because in reality you would have to get drunk, get stoned and then make another problem and the process repeats itself.
Movies tells you that when you wait for the love of your life, he would eventually come just like a knight in shining armor, he'll sneak in you bedroom and then you'll kiss romantically but in reality you can't really kiss inside your bedroom because your parents are strict and the love of your life won't really come when you wait, well not always, but seldom, they don't really come. Because there is a big possibility that you are waiting for someone who will impossibly be yours. Uh huh. Truth hurts.
Movies also tells you that even if your crush is not paying attention at you at first, there will come a day when he will suddenly looks at you with all that background music playing and that slow motion effects when you'll say to your friends that you're heart stops beating. But this shit ass bullshit do not really happens in reality because we people are not edited, we don't have a real fucking life video editor. We can't slow the motion when our crush looks at us and there is a big possibility that the "spark" is not mutual.
Life would be easier if they are life the movies. When you can easily found your love one. When you're crush would talk to you and you'll be couples in the end. When you could easily put yourself up from a humiliation. Life does not come rehearsed. Life does not come with scripts. Life does not come edited. Life is fucking complicated. And we have to deal with it. Bitches all over. Liars all over. Plastics all over. Look around kids, we do not have a director, we do not have a script. We have our laptops of DVD players. So what do we do? Bummed ourselves and wait for the right guy who would accept us that we are bum and that he understands everything that is happening? No. LIFE IS NOT THAT EASY. LIFE IS ONE FUCK ASS COMPLICATED. And if you are weak enough, it will fuck fuck fuck rape rape rape you NON STOP.
Be more better as how the movies end. Movies do not actually shows its ending-ending. Viewers just know that the story ended but viewers do not know the story afterwards. Maybe the married couple at the end will be bored with each other and sell weeds instead and get their lives miserable. Movies do not show viewers these kind of things.
So, people can watch movie but cannot rely that like movies they can also find that story. Our life is made of different stories and I'm sure mine is better than yours and I'm also sure that you'll say that your life story is better than mine. Yes because we have our own. We have to make things possible for our own. We should write our own awesome story not until the end but until the very end. Be it awesome. Don't let the movies fool you, and don't let life fuck you. But if you're already been fooled or fucked, then good luck on your own awesome story. Live well. Write it well.
I hope my life could be like that. Sometimes I wish that my high school life had been as dramatic as their high school life, when one is just a looser then at prom night, she suddenly became the prom queen. Oh wow, lovely. Like it's really happening to most of the people watching in the real life.
This is why sometimes I hate movies, and whatever is there to watch because it puts wrong fucking notions into people's mind. It tells you that everything will be over in just a snap and you'll get over with your problem but it is really not that easy because in reality you would have to get drunk, get stoned and then make another problem and the process repeats itself.
Movies tells you that when you wait for the love of your life, he would eventually come just like a knight in shining armor, he'll sneak in you bedroom and then you'll kiss romantically but in reality you can't really kiss inside your bedroom because your parents are strict and the love of your life won't really come when you wait, well not always, but seldom, they don't really come. Because there is a big possibility that you are waiting for someone who will impossibly be yours. Uh huh. Truth hurts.
Movies also tells you that even if your crush is not paying attention at you at first, there will come a day when he will suddenly looks at you with all that background music playing and that slow motion effects when you'll say to your friends that you're heart stops beating. But this shit ass bullshit do not really happens in reality because we people are not edited, we don't have a real fucking life video editor. We can't slow the motion when our crush looks at us and there is a big possibility that the "spark" is not mutual.
Life would be easier if they are life the movies. When you can easily found your love one. When you're crush would talk to you and you'll be couples in the end. When you could easily put yourself up from a humiliation. Life does not come rehearsed. Life does not come with scripts. Life does not come edited. Life is fucking complicated. And we have to deal with it. Bitches all over. Liars all over. Plastics all over. Look around kids, we do not have a director, we do not have a script. We have our laptops of DVD players. So what do we do? Bummed ourselves and wait for the right guy who would accept us that we are bum and that he understands everything that is happening? No. LIFE IS NOT THAT EASY. LIFE IS ONE FUCK ASS COMPLICATED. And if you are weak enough, it will fuck fuck fuck rape rape rape you NON STOP.
Be more better as how the movies end. Movies do not actually shows its ending-ending. Viewers just know that the story ended but viewers do not know the story afterwards. Maybe the married couple at the end will be bored with each other and sell weeds instead and get their lives miserable. Movies do not show viewers these kind of things.
So, people can watch movie but cannot rely that like movies they can also find that story. Our life is made of different stories and I'm sure mine is better than yours and I'm also sure that you'll say that your life story is better than mine. Yes because we have our own. We have to make things possible for our own. We should write our own awesome story not until the end but until the very end. Be it awesome. Don't let the movies fool you, and don't let life fuck you. But if you're already been fooled or fucked, then good luck on your own awesome story. Live well. Write it well.
Chance or Choice?
So that is what happens when people are stuck up in a situation where in you have to choose between your heart or your mind, between the one who would love to be with you in public or the one who is embarrass to hang out with you when people you know might see you.
There's a big difference between being loved or being used. There's a big difference between holding your hands in public or just holding your hand after you guys make out or in the cab. There's a big difference when you can go out together with each other friends or you are not being introduced to his friends.
Yes, maybe the other party had his side, his own version of his story, his own explanation of his feelings. But surely, you is what important to you. So with your unreliable instinct, you've just opened up your door with the other guy whom you choose before even knowing the full version of what is really happening. You choose to miss that chance.
This just like when a girl is with a boy and then the boy is cold with her and then she found someone who would appreciate her the most and then dumped her boyfriend. Girl is lonely, wants company. Other boy enters the scene, perfect enough to be the company. Missing story: boyfriend who probably had his own problems but is not able to speak up for he don't have a chance.
Basically, if this shit is on movie, it would be blockbuster and the people would say at the premiere "I would definitely watch it again! I can't stop crying." And then the viewers would talk and blame the boyfrtiend for not having his balls to explain what the real score is.
What kind of ending do we have here? Oh, a depressing one. Girl not really happy with the other boy. Boyfriend not happy because he can't do anything. Choice over Chance. Or maybe if the boyfriend acts on the problem, then no one will be in this situation, That makes it Chance over Choice.
So what do we do? I say, we blog about it since it is really hard when you are in that situation and I thank God that I am not. And with these kind of problems couples experience when they're in a relationship, I am really glad that I'm single.
There's a big difference between being loved or being used. There's a big difference between holding your hands in public or just holding your hand after you guys make out or in the cab. There's a big difference when you can go out together with each other friends or you are not being introduced to his friends.
Yes, maybe the other party had his side, his own version of his story, his own explanation of his feelings. But surely, you is what important to you. So with your unreliable instinct, you've just opened up your door with the other guy whom you choose before even knowing the full version of what is really happening. You choose to miss that chance.
This just like when a girl is with a boy and then the boy is cold with her and then she found someone who would appreciate her the most and then dumped her boyfriend. Girl is lonely, wants company. Other boy enters the scene, perfect enough to be the company. Missing story: boyfriend who probably had his own problems but is not able to speak up for he don't have a chance.
Basically, if this shit is on movie, it would be blockbuster and the people would say at the premiere "I would definitely watch it again! I can't stop crying." And then the viewers would talk and blame the boyfrtiend for not having his balls to explain what the real score is.
What kind of ending do we have here? Oh, a depressing one. Girl not really happy with the other boy. Boyfriend not happy because he can't do anything. Choice over Chance. Or maybe if the boyfriend acts on the problem, then no one will be in this situation, That makes it Chance over Choice.
So what do we do? I say, we blog about it since it is really hard when you are in that situation and I thank God that I am not. And with these kind of problems couples experience when they're in a relationship, I am really glad that I'm single.
What I want for Christmas
So, kung sino may mabuting loob dyan. :-)
AND MOST OF ALL!!! The "All I want for Christmas" Hearts hearts!!
AND MOST OF ALL!!! The "All I want for Christmas" Hearts hearts!!
Isang date lang! kahit lugaw lang sa Antonio, kahit wala nang libro! Masaya nako.
BB GURL
Say hello to my baby sister! Wow, ate na ulit ako, 20 years gap. Putangina, beat that! Hihi. Ang cute cute niya o. Sana hindi siya lumaking maarte. Sana maging okay ang buhay niya, sana hindi ako mainis sa kanya in the future. Sana hindi lang siya ngayong bata cute. Sana hindi siya lumaking katulad ko, sana maging almost perfect ang life niya. I wish all the best for her. Aalagaan ko siya sa abot ng makakaya ko. Magpapaka tino akong ate, magiging good influence ako na ate (wow) Hihi. Sana lumaki siyang matino at mabuhay ng matiwasay at maayos at mahaba. Labyu labyu bb gurrrrrlll! Hihihi! <3
Retreat 2011
Hindi ako nag share.
Hindi ako nag confess.
Pero nag refelct naman ako inside. Promise.
Ang saya kasi mas napamahal yata ang blockmates ko sa isa't isa. At mahal ko din naman talaga sila. Masaya kasi mas naging close kami sa isa't isa. Kahit may ibang mga uma attitude pa din kahit naturingang retreat. Matamaan sana kayo ng kidlat. Yung mga nagmamaganda di naman maganda, hihi. Yung mga nagpapaka bitch di naman bagay. Ouch ilag ka. Hihi! Masaya ako sa calerguega roomies ko. Ang fa fun kasama! <3
Basta, fun fun fun! Closer to nature, closer to God. <3 Love you Lord! Mwa tsup
Planner 2012
Yay! Starbucks 2012 Planner. Daily aksaya ng pera para sa planner. Nais kong pasalamatan yung sponsor ko sa aking 2011 planner. Nagamit ko siyang mabuti. At buhay pa siya ngayon. Nays! Ang ingat ko sa gamit. Charot. Masabe lang na naka starbucks planner. Yabang yabang ko naman. Aba naman dapat lang ipagyabang. Hahaha! Aba ang mahal mahal niyan. Ilang sweldo ng magulang ko yan. Salamat din pala sa mga nahingian ko ng stickers at medyo napadali ang buhay ko. Yey!
Mga hindi makuntento
Bakit ba kasi ang daming mga hindi makuntento? Meron namang mga syota pero hindi pa rin masaya. Matatanggap ko pa sana kung hindi pa sila nagtatagal nung syota. Maiintindihan ko sana kasi baka nga naman hindi lang nila gaano kakilala ang isa't isa. Pero yung iba na hindi katanggap tanggap gaya ng mga babanggitin ko mamaya, e ibang usapan naman yun.
May kakilala ako na 5 yrs na sila ng gf niya tapos kung kani kanino siya nakikipag kembelar. Mag a iloveyou pa sa ibang kinekembelar niya. Sabi ko bakit nya sinasabihan ng ganung words kung hindi naman niya mini mean? Sabi naman niya iba daw ang love sa girlfriend. So may love para sa mga kinekembelar? Masaya naman daw sila nung girlfriend niya, makulit sila kapag magkasama and in fairview, maganda yung gf niya. So magtataka ka talaga kung bakit kailangang magloko siya. Pero ayon sa kanya, hindi naman daw sa pagaabang peero masyado daw "obsessed" sa kanya yung babae. Yung tipong dapat bawat friend sa facebook nung lalake, dapat kilala ng babae tapos kapag may hindi kilala mag aaway na sila kasi daw "chix" nya daw yun. Kahit papano, kung titingnan mo maiintindihan mo yung lalake kung ganun naman kahigpit yung babae. So tinanong ko, bat di mo iwan? Mahal niya naman daw kasi kahit ganun. At yun nga, masaya naman daw sila at sweet daw yung babae.
Meron naman ako kakilala na hindi mahiwalan yung syota kasi 6 yrs na daw sila. Nanghihinayang nalang daw siya sa tagal ng pinagsamahan nila. Ang akin naman, hindi kaya naghihintayan lang sila kung sino ang una mangiiwan?
Meron namang nasa matagal na sa relasyon pero kung kani kanino pa nakikipag landian.
Meron namang nasa isang relasyon pero kapag kasama na yung mga ex nya, sasabihin niya single siya at makikipag todo landian.
Marami pa dyan. Sigurado ako, ikaw na nagbabasa nito may kilala ka ding gagong hindi makuntento. Bat kaya sila ganun? Di ba nila naiisip na may mga taong single na walang mahanap tapos sila gusto dala dalawa pa. Ang mga putanginang selfish na to. Pano naman yung iba? Give chance to others kung baga. Pero di ba nga, life is never fair. But that is not a good reason to be unfair. Ang lalaking mga gago e.
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