Kausap ka na naman,
Parang hindi na nagkasawaan
Pero malabo pa din ang nararamdaman
Sila ba o ikaw nalang?

E paano ba naman, napakalabo mo.
Hindi malaman kung sinasabi'y seryoso
Malay ko ba kung pareho pala tayong gagi
Napakalabo, tangina mo

Pwede ba yung ayaw kita mawala?
Pwede ba yung ayaw kita makasama?
Ayaw makasama pero ayaw mawala,
Uubra ba yun? Sa panahon ngayon, may ganun ba?

Ayaw ko ng mabilisan
Gusto ko may kasiguraduhan
Para may patunguhan
Kahit na nagkakalokohan

Sa isang relasyon na walang kasiguraduhan, ano kayang patutunguhan kapag may isang naguluhan?

Sa isang relasyong walang 'iloveyou'han, pero laging nagkakantutan, ano kayang mangyayari kapag yung isa hindi na ginaganahan?

Sa isang relasyong walang maayos na usapan, ano kayang ganap kapag yung isa nakaramdam ng pagmamahal na hindi dapat?

Sa isang relasyong 'friends lang' pero madalas magkapisan, ano kayang mangyayari kapag ang isa, natuto nang umasa at maghintay, na wala naman sa usapan?

Lalayo ang isa, walang pakialam ang isa.
Umasa ang isa, walang pakialam ang isa.
Naghintay ang isa, walang pakialam ang isa.
Malulungkot ang isa, walang pakialam ang isa.
Nagdadrama ang isa, walang pakialam ang isa.
Nag e emo ang isa, walang pakialam ang isa.
Nagmamahal ang isa, walang pakialam ang isa.

Paano kung may gusto kang tao pero minsan naiisip mo na baka gusto mo lang siya kasi wala nang ibang choice, kasi siya lang yung nandyan. Paano kung gusto mo talaga siya kaso hindi niya abot ang standards mo? Dapat ka bang mag adjust at magbigay ng chance? Dapat bang I try?

Paano naman kapag ini try at binigyan ng chance? Tapos hindi nag work, e pano kapag seryoso siya, edi masasaktan siya. Paano kung alam mo yung feeling ng nasasaktan at ayaw mo manakit ng iba? Madali namang manakit e. Yun nga lang mahirap makarma.

Minsan kasi madali sabihing "Wala namang masama kung ita try mo" madali sabihin, ang hirap gawin kasi iisipin mo pa yung mga consequences ng pag try mo e. Andun kasi yung 90% na makakasakit ka lang ng tao, na makakapagpaasa ka lang kasi nag try ka pa e.

Pero paano kapag ayaw mo siya mawala? Pero hindi mo siya gusto makasama? Mahirap naman lalo yun. Yung parang kelangan mo lang siya kapag no choice ka na. Wi withdraw ng pagtingin kapag wala nanbg may gusto sayo.

Minsan hindi na talaga sapat yung mahal ka e. Dapat mahal mo din e. Para sakin hindi naman talaga kasi uubra ang one way love e. Mahirap na you guys are not on the same page. Na inlove yung isa, tapos yung isa, nag ta try lang. Mahirap yun. At magulo. At sobrang naguguluhan nako ngayon.

Renz Danielle Castro.

“Love is undefinable.” He said when asked what for him is love but then he said “Ang love ay isang hindi ordinaryong pakiramdam na nararamdaman ng isang tao kapag siya ay nagmamahal.” He also said that love is overrated, in this generation because of the fact that people say that they are in love when in fact they are not.

But how can one really know if they are in love or they just love the idea of being in love? He said that once that you are in love, there is that certain feeling which is “kakaiba”. He said that you are in love when you cannot stop thinking of that certain person, you think of that person and make him or her your inspiration and never a distraction. He also said that you are in love when you can do things which you are not capable of doing before and that you are in love when you’ve started to feel pain.

But then how does he come up with his meaning of love? Renz has already been in a relationship four times now. But according to him, he is not considering the first two girls as his ex-girlfriends because of the fact he was not serious at that time.

“Kasi yung first two, wala lang yun e. Wala pa akong ka alam-alam (sa love) noon,” he said.

From play time relationships, he now experience the real ‘love’ thing due to his third girlfriend which he did, really did love. But then again, maybe fairytales don't really have a happy ending. The girl involve according to him suddenly stopped communicating with him for a week and then he found out that the girl was communicating with someone else. Then he broke up with her.

But upon experiencing his third girlfriend up to his’ fourth, he can say that his views on romantic relationships climbs up to the next level and become more mature. He started to think serious about love.

Being in a serious relationship for the first time, he understands now what love truly is and then therefore as for himself, he can say that he is not the ‘playboy’ kind of guy, that kind of guy who will jump into a relationship even if he do not feel anything for the certain person involved.

“Hindi ko naman kasi ugaling manakit ng tao e, mas okay na sa akin yung ako yung sasaktan kaysa sa ako iyung manakit,” he said.

His’ first and second relationship lasted for a week or less; third lasted for four months and the last lasted for three weeks. One cannot measure or prove one’s love based on the term of the relationship. Be it long term or for short only.

When asked if why does his’ relationships ended up in a break-up if relationships is important for him, he said: “Siguro kaya natatapos agad ang isang relasyon ay dahil may mga bagay na mag mabuting tapusin ng maaga kesa patagalin at pahabain ang sitwasyon,”

From serious relationship into experiencing long distance relationship, he said that it is really not easy to be involved in that kind of relationship. One should make sacrifices and everything for the sake of saving the relationship. Time and Communication, according to him is what long distance relationships is about. He said that these two, when gone, makes the relationship vanish too.

“So kapag papasok ka sa isang LDR, dapat siguuraduhin mo sa sarili mo na handa ka na talagang i-commit ang sarili mo sa mga bagay-bagay,” not just for long disntance relationship. This goes to all kinds of relationship, commitment."

Tamis

Ang hirap kapag ‘feeling’ mo nilalandi ka ng isang tao tapos ma po fall ka. Tapos ipagtatanong mo sa iba kung kamusta ba siya, kung ano ba yung pagka tao niya. Ang masaklap na sagot na maririnig mo, “e di ba nilandi na niya si ano at si ano”.

Tapos ikaw naman, sa pagiisip na marahil siya ang nilalandi at hindi siya malandi, sasabihin mo na “Baka naman siya ang nilalandi” tapos isa na namang masaklap na sagot amg maririnig mo na “ewan ko, sweet daw kasi siya e”

Hirap naman kapag sweet ang isang tao. Maganda sana yung pagiging sweet kung nasa loob kayo nang isang relasyon o kung may gusto ka sa taong pinaglalaanan ka ng sweetness mo. Pero kung sweet ka para lang kiligin o ma fall ang mga tao sa paligid mo, bad yun. Di ba?

Iisipin nang taong nakakakita nang sweetness mo na nilalandi mo siya. Kapag ayaw mong may ma fall sayo, mag dala ka ng sign na malaki ilagay mo “Sweet ako! Sa lahat ng tao!” Ayun. Hindi ka na talaga ma mi misinterpret nun. Pero kung sweet ka at single kayo pareho. Maaaring iba na ang iniisip nung isa. Di ba?

Marahil yung isa ay tanga at hindi alam ang aspeto ng ‘landian’ at hindi alam ang kahulugan ng ‘fling’. Malay mo ang taong pinapakitaan mo ng sweetness ay mabilis pa lang ma fall dahil minsan lang makaramdam ng kilig dahil siya ay tigang na sa pag-ibig. Malay mo ang taong yun ay tumatanda nang dalaga.

When being sweet, you should take in consideration din yung taong pinagpapakitaan mo ng sweetness mo. Being sweet is fine, cute. But to some, it may appear as flirting. So you don’t know what kind of person you’re dealing with.

Its either that person is nakikisakay sa pagiging sweet mo because that person is like you lang din na sweet sa lahat or that person is nakikisakay kasi that person likes you and that person is hoping that you could change for him/her because that person is thinking that if s/he shows you the same treatment, you will eventually learn to love him/her.

If you like to make landi, fine. Pero wag namang makasarili. Isipin din yung mga posibilidad na nararamdaman o mararamdaman ng taong involve.

Wag magmaganda 'te

Ang hirap kapag may mga nagmamagaling na tao. Yung mga akala mo kung sinong magagaling magsulat pero kapag nakita mo naman ako gawa nya mapapa "What the hell" ka nalang e. Ang hirap talaga sa tao yung may attitude e. Ang malala pa niyan, kapag bad ang attitude.

Kainis pa kapag she talks about you behind your back, ay ay, super foul di ba pero dahil mabait ka, keber ang lola mo. Pero yung ugali talagang nagmamarunong, hindi ko mate take e. Mang back stab siya hanggang kaya niya, wala akong pakialam. Pero yung nagmamarunong at nagaangas? Ibang usapan na yun.

So Claire, why is that...?

Bakit kapag may mga taong magbabasa ng blog ko, parang kalimitang reaksyon ay ang dami kong alam sa pagibig? (Ibang usapan na yung isa kong blog ha, if you know what I mean.) Ang gusto kong sabihin dito, hindi mo naman kailangang nararanasan talaga ang isang bagay kung gusto mo isulat yun diba?

Well mas gagaling ka kung madami kang alam sa bagay na yun, kung naranasan mo na, kung nag research ka or kung matagal mo na gusto maranasan ang kung ano man yung sinusulat mo. I guess, katulad ng love, there is also the right time for writing. I'm not saying that there really is 'writer's block' kasi ayokong ginagamit ang term na yun but I do believe that there's really a time for writing.

Mabalik tayo sa pag ba blog ko nang ka kemehan tungkol sa pagibig. Hey guys, opinion ko lahat yun ha. Lahat ng sinusulat ko is coming from my own point of view, kung iba ang point mo, no one cares. I don't care, nakikibasa ka lang e di'ba? Okay good.

Moving on, I write about love (mostly) not because I'm in love. I write about love not because I want love (well actually I do). I write about love because I just feel like writing about it. No shit. Kesa namang pilitin kong mag blog tungkol sa music? Politics? Reaction article? Book review?

Kanya kanyang trip yan diba? Wala nalang basagan.
Ako lang pwede mambasag nang trip dito. Choz.

As for a paper for conflict issues, I've thought of making an article about the Reproduction Health Bill which I think would be main stream. So I am writing an article about the conflict of using illegal drugs and that of officials who cannot handle the release of drugs in the Philippines.

Cocaine, marijuana, LSD, and other illegal drugs, though prohibited are still being attained or "take" by some people. And while these people are having the time of their lives getting high and flying and soaring and seeing unicorns, government officials are stating that "Thou shall not take drugs. You'll die early. You'll be in prison for a long time if you don't have money to free yourself."

Maybe the government just can’t really help these drug users if they want to die early or if taking these drugs makes them happy, less depressed, less stressed, and to see unicorns and butterflies allover. But these users cannot blame the government either for making drugs illegal because, I don’t know, maybe drugs are made to be illegal. Maybe it is the drugs’ fate to be illegal.

Problem is, there are really people who don't care if they will die from drugs. At the same time, these government officials may somehow are not doing their jobs well for letting these prohibited "goods" be taken by users. Bigger problem, some of the known people in our country are using them, or selling them, or pushing them.

As some Filipinos puts it, "Ang magnanakaw ay galit sa kapwa magnanakaw." Maybe in this case, users (government people users) are angry with their co-users (drug users). #

Paano nga naman kung wala namang mali sa isang relasyon ngunit dahil praning ka, magiisip ka ng magiisip. "Mahal ba niya ako?" "Mahal pa ba niya ako?" "Baka naman nasasakal na siya sa akin?" "Baka naman may iba na siya?" at kung ano ano pang tanong na lalo lang makakagulo sa isip mo na mapupunta sa pag conclude na "Siguro ayaw na niya sakin" "Ay wala na, ayawan na to"

Kasi nga paranoid ka. Paano kung pinoproblema mo lang pala ang mga hindi naman dapat problemahin? E ikaw pala may problema e. Dapat kasi wag feeling.

"Feeling ko galit siya sa akin" "Feeling ko sawa na siya sa akin" E putangina lang diba? Anong magagawa natin niyan?

Kung feeling mo may problema, solusyunan agad bago pa lumala.

Wag yung wala kang gagawing aksyon kasi lalo lang lalala.

When we're in love

Isn’t it that when we are in love, we think that we are the most blessed person on earth. That moment when we are so happy because we love a person and that person loves us back. Even when the person doesn’t love us back, the fact that the certain person is an inspiration to you makes you happy, still.

Even if it’s love that of your parents, friends or relatives, still you can’t be less happier because someone loves you and I think that’s what really matters.

But irony of all irony, that thing that makes you happy is also the cause of everyone’s extreme sadness. What can be more sad except that of being in love? “Losing someone important makes me more sad” Yes, but what makes you sad? Because that someone is important to you and you love that person so when that someone left you, it hurts.

When you come to think of it, all the source of your sadness is that of being in love. Bottom line, you can’t be more happier when you’re in love at the same time, you can’t be less sad.

Loving someone wholeheartedly is like hurting yourself willingly. Giving in to love is like sacrificing your own happiness and saying that “I’m ready to get hurt.”

So, love willingly, hurt yourself responsibly.

Love really comes along with hurt, eh?
And I guess, love really makes the world go round.